I guess, I’ll starting to make this post series. If you read my last post, which is on April 2019, You will notice that I’m not in a good condition mentally. I tried to solve the problem by stating and visioning my long term goals. One of them is getting the OSCP certification, which is up until now, I haven’t tried to achieving it. The problem is not that I’m not motivated enough to do all the necessary activity to achieve those goals, but I just don’t know whether that was what i really wanted back then (even now) and don’t feel rewarding. that’s why I stuck.
To solve that, I started to questioning myself a bit more, deeper, and even asked for helps. Sometimes, I feel utterly useless, desperate, and even doubting my existence in this world. Plus, I’m not a good social person, you can imagine how sucks that period was. Well, I’m not going to tell it more. The point is, I need really to plan my day to day action, so I can change my habit, !! I realize what makes me really happy is by achieving something what I want, it doesn’t have to be something big. Just a simple recognition, congratulation, or even treat for myself after I finish some simple and easy task/course. Because, for me, those things is soo much satisfying. Just do the simple thing first and consistently!
Here is my plans for this month :
- Wake up early, do some exercise before going to office.
- Complete 1 book, ( I will complete Sapiens by Harari this month, and write it on goodread/this blog so I will feel rewarded )
- Cook my own meal.
- Complete basic android and data science course, get the certificate, and post it on linkedin (i’m not aiming big, im just taking the simplest courses this month).
- Exercise after office, my plan is just to run on treadmill before going home from office.
That’s it. !!
ps. motivations indeed come from ourselves. We define our own motivation. We define our own path. Sure, you need a trully good environtment as the catalyst, but in the end it’s our own life. There will always doubts, even from ourlselves, just compensate and befriend with it, nothing bad will come from it !, I really mean it, let’s keep moving wherever we want to go !!